On Fragility and Freedom

The concept that we have some kind of permanence - some sort of "right" to be here on the Earth and that therefore anything which upsets this construct is somehow 'bad' - is a concept which has come from spurious Christian theology. If you question theology; something everyone SHOULD do; you come to realise that there is nothing special enough about we humans to preclude us from being terribly disadvantaged within our lifetimes. Just as animals suffer, become extinct, get eaten or die in drought, flood or fire, lose babies, become leaders of groups or lose power within one....so do we. We are not so superior a species that we are uniquely favoured by a Creator being. If this preposterous idea of favouritism which the mainstream religions erroneously propose WAS true, then there should be no reason for this being to 'test' our faith with the constant abjections we all suffer. It's not a test. It's what all animals go through. The 'wild ones' expect it.....we do not. Why? Because deep down we expect to be 'saved'.

I do not hold with the idea of a Creator. I do not hold with the idea of superiority. I know we are the same as any creature on this planet. We live, and die, by our wits. If we lack wit, and a certain amount of bravery, we do not experience life in the way we could....which is to say, we cannot live the way a truly FREE creature of the Earth does. You can postulate upon your superior abilities, whilst slaving for money that is squandered on useless consumerables, and making yourselves feel righteous every Sunday [or Saturday if you are even stupider] because you sit on your fat bums listening to some university graduate talk about fantasy for an hour and a half. How ridiculous. Do you not realise how fragile we are, how fragile it all is? How quickly everything you have built around you crumbles and ceases to be? Live like the free creature of the world you truly are. Revel in the moments you have to experience all there is to experience....and stop being afraid!

On Currency

Yes, I know I have already spoken of this topic...but it's weighing on my mind at the moment and therefore I feel I must talk about it or go crazy. What is this currency I have spoken of in my previous post? It's the value ratio given to one's personal attractiveness, bringing into consideration the purely physical, surface appearance of a person, along with the intellectual appeal to others, and, finally, also takes into account the way an attractive person can make another person feel when in their presence. So to have REAL currency in the world one must be good to look at, great to talk to and be able to make another person feel as though they have at least the same amount of currency. In order to be given the chance to 'show your cards', as it were, one must FIRST be attractive enough physically to be given the opportunity to show what you've got. Any flaw in one's physical appearance is a handicap.
Although it can cut both ways. If one is truly beautiful, there is a tendency for others to assume that the rest of the golden ratio is therefore less...brains not so impressive......social skills wanting ....an implied selfishness and stupidity.....
But there is something to be said for the easier ride one gets if one is beautiful....it is easy to convince others of your value if you can debate philosophy, whilst smiling warmly and telling hilarious jokes AND you look like a god. People forgive the beautiful for being beautiful....but they canot seem to help but ignore the plain....no matter how delightful they really are.

On Feeling Beautiful

It's ridiculous that this still matters to me. I should be above such nonsense by now, surely? I'm no longer young. And youth is where beauty dwells, right? Oh, that just sounds so unfair! Can't an older woman be sexy? Can't she still turn heads? No.. Not in MY world. In MY world women look at me....probably because I am VERY conscious of my clothes and the way I look, and have great taste, but men? Nope. Not ONE sideways glance. So I feel as though my value as a sensual, sexual being is gone. Time for spending my time baking, calling young people 'dear' and wearing fluffy slippers. But that's NOT who I am inside....inside I am full of magical, dark energy, fire and youthful hunger. Surely my outside isn't SO degraded? But that lack of positive attention from men makes me feel as though I can't feel free to be flirtatious. That if I do I will look stupid, desperate and slightly creepy. What is the answer for those of us older than 25? Is that why so many older women take up golf? Hitting stuff MIGHT actually help......
I just really wish it was different and I could feel beautiful again.